"myself"

"myself"

I never win 1st place

my parents hate me

my own reputation is so bad that it hurts myself

everyday i fight a war against the mirror

myself just ugly

i wantED to be so popular

but at this moment everybody can kiss my ass!

I never ran with mascara eyes

when i ran, then far far away from home

i'm always in a fight

because i can't do nothing right

i'm still trying to find myself

but i'm sure i won't find it

i'm so naive

so the boys often pulled me

I often have fights

against people who i don't understand

or won't they understand me?

I never found a gang

I often heard the answer "you're not good enough"

I can remember my first crying

and how i wiped my eyes

and next day i counted the rings

under my eyes

with 12 i wanted to be a star

and now i'm happy when my parents do not ignore me

I curse this bloody world

because the life is a game

and i don't know the rules how to play it

and my life is just a nightmare

i'm a harzard to myself

It's bad when you ennoy yourself

but thats my hobby

i'm my own worst enemy

I have to destroy myself!

I'm going out of my head

and i'm losing my mind

i'll go insane

but stop!

Isn't anybody there to take me by the hand and take me somewhere new?

yes, theres someone.

He is try hard to save my life.

An angel heaven sent.

so i'd rather be anything but ordinary. i'd win my self-confidence back

and try hart to led my life!

I'd see something postivie!

I'd think something positive!

I'd think I could find myself then.

But give me a little time.